The rain is pounding on the roof as I type. It’s the kind of
slow, steady rain that lulls you to sleep and makes you feel like there is no
alarm in the morning. Summertime is creeping by and I feel like I can almost
hear whispers of the next season. I won’t say it, because it seems when I talk
about months passing by quickly people get antsy and anxious. But it does feel
like _ _ _ _ is coming very quickly, and I can hardly contain my excitement.
Today was rough. No, today was an overload of anxiety and
worry – which was an abrupt change to my normal day-to-day. I’m not going to go
into the causes of those two symptoms, because they simply aren’t the focus of
this post.
After work on Mondays I normally drive over to the gym for
an hour and a half of sweating. Not feeling like cooping myself up in a cold
concrete room with BO hanging in the air, I drove home, picked up my dogs, and
went for a hike. I decided the sunshine and sweet summer air were a better
choice. I parked at the foot of Kennesaw Mountain and got my overly excited
pups on leashes. As we began the journey, a calming presence followed. My
shoulders relaxed, my pace slowed, and I began to enjoy my surroundings.
The trail was wide and dirt covered. The tall trees
stretched way up into the sky, and hung over the hikers like a protective arch.
I felt like I was walking deeper into a mystery, a sweet and slow mystery that
wasn’t at all scary.
I stopped every so often to sit on a bench or a rock and
pray. I brought my tiny travel Bible, and I would read it often and let the
words soak in like air, like life. The
evening seemed to stretch out like molasses dripping off a toothpick. Two tiny
fauns grazed literally 20 feet in front of me, sweetly and without a care in
the world. The night was perfect, and I was beginning to feel at ease again.
Tonight reminded me that God created the trees and his
creativity brought forth the mountains. It reminded me that days come and go
just like seasons, and burdens are meant to be lifted off our shoulders. Soon
the crackle of a fire will replace the splashes of children in a pool and we
will crave hot cider over iced sweet tea. Honestly I’m ready for that time. But
I can wait for now, listen to the rain, and think about how big and brooding
the trees were tonight. For now.